Nicole Kidman Has Finally Opened Up About The Pain She Suffered During Her Marriage To Tom Cruise

Nicole Kidman may be a beautiful and talented star, but her life hasn’t always been easy. After she married Tom Cruise in 1990, for example, she experienced some trials and tribulations that she mainly kept to herself. Kidman and Cruise divorced in 2001, however, and perhaps the passing of time has helped the actress to speak out about how painful her time with her ex-husband actually was.

Kidman’s career since divorcing Cruise, meanwhile, has gone from strength to strength. In 2002 she won a Best Actress Oscar for playing Virginia Woolf in The Hours; since then, she’s also received two other nominations for her work in Rabbit Hole and Lion. Kidman’s personal life seems to have improved, too, as she has been married since 2006 to musician Keith Urban.

And by all appearances, Kidman and Urban have a successful relationship, judging by their showings of affection for each other on social media. What’s more, even though Kidman’s career more or less eclipses Urban’s, the country singer is consistently supportive of his wife. After Kidman’s HBO series Big Little Lies turned out to be a massive hit, for instance, Urban told Australian talk show Sunrise how proud he was of her.

But it wasn’t always that way for Kidman. Before she married Urban, she was the wife of Tom Cruise – and he was very much the more famous of the pair throughout their marriage. In fact, it was Cruise who gave the actress one of her big breaks with the movie Days of Thunder. After watching Kidman in 1989’s Dead Calm, the Top Gun star convinced the Thunder producers to cast her as his love interest in the film.

Days of Thunder came out in 1990, and that same year Kidman and Cruise were married. “[Cruise] basically swept me off my feet,” Kidman would remark in a 2002 interview with Vanity Fair. “I fell madly, passionately in love. And as happens when you fall in love, my whole plan in terms of what I wanted for my life — I was like, ‘Forget it. This is it.’”

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However, Kidman and Cruise’s wedding would be very much tied up with the Church of Scientology; Cruise was already well involved in the religion by then. In addition, the church’s head, David Miscavige, served as best man to the Top Gun star.

Then, after the wedding, Kidman badly wanted to have children with Cruise. But it wasn’t to be, and so, after some fertility issues, the couple decided to adopt. “My mother has an adopted sister, so it’s been part of our family and I knew it would probably play out somewhere in mine. I didn’t think that it would happen so early but it did,” Kidman said in a 2007 interview with Vanity Fair.

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The pair therefore adopted two children: a girl called Bella in 1993 and a boy called Connor in 1995. The siblings were raised in the Hollywood lifestyle as they grew up, with their parents starring in big movies like Mission: Impossible, Jerry Maguire and Batman Forever. Kidman and Cruise also appeared in a film together in 1999 – the erotic drama Eyes Wide Shut.

But in February 2001, Hollywood’s golden couple suddenly announced their separation. “Citing the difficulties inherent in divergent careers which constantly kept them apart, they concluded that an amicable separation seemed best for both of them at this time,” the pair announced through spokesperson Pat Kingsley in a statement.

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After that bombshell had hit, speculation then began as to what had happened to drive Kidman and Cruise apart. One media source claimed that the split was due in part to Kidman wanting to spend more time in her home country of Australia, while Cruise wished to stay in the U.S. It was also alleged that the root cause of the breakup was Scientology and Kidman’s refusal to become fully immersed in the religion.

And rumors additionally spread that the film Eyes Wide Shut and its intensely difficult shooting schedule had been a big nail in the coffin for the pair. However, Kidman debunked that idea to The Hollywood Reporter in 2012. “People thought that making the film was the beginning of the end of my marriage,” she wrote. “But I don’t really think it was. Tom and I were close then.”

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But whatever the true reason for the split, it appeared that the infertility problems that Kidman had suffered during her marriage to Cruise had taken their toll on the actress. In 2007, just a few years after the divorce, Kidman talked to Marie Claire magazine about what had happened. “I had a miscarriage at the end of my marriage, but I had an ectopic pregnancy at the beginning of my marriage. It was incredibly traumatic for me,” she said.

Luckily, things did get better for Kidman in that regard. After marrying Keith Urban in 2006, she had two more children, both girls – one born through surrogacy. The first came along in 2008 and the second in 2010. And in 2018, as Kidman’s two daughters were growing up, the actress spoke to Tatler magazine regarding the impact of all that she’d been through.

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Kidman talked, for example, about how she had wanted a baby so badly. “I know the yearning. That yearning. It’s a huge, aching yearning,” she said. “And the loss! The loss of a miscarriage is not talked about enough. That’s massive grief to certain women.” Having been through both, Kidman is well-versed in that kind of pain.

“There’s an enormous amount of pain and an enormous amount of joy on the other side,” the star went on. “The flipside of going through so much yearning and pain to get there is the feeling of ‘Ahhhh!’ when you have the child.” She also mentioned in the interview that she believes mothers are mothers regardless of whether their children are adopted or biological.

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Furthermore, Kidman discussed how terribly lonely she’d felt once her divorce from Cruise had gone through – despite the fact that her career was in the ascendance. Even while holding her Oscar for The Hours a year after the split, she had felt lost. She had still wanted to have a baby, she told the magazine – perhaps as a single mother.

Then, at one point in the Tatler piece, the interviewer shared a personal story with Kidman. They wrote, “When I tell her that I also went through a divorce and also experienced issues with fertility, she is immediately empathetic. ‘And you were shattered?’ she asks, as if she knows only too well what that’s like.” It was a telling paragraph about the actress.

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Of course, Kidman’s ex-husband went on to have his first biological child just a few years after the pair’s divorce: Suri, the daughter he shares with wife Katie Holmes. However, that marriage didn’t last for Cruise, either. In 2012 Holmes filed for divorce from Cruise and gained primary custody of Suri. And, once again, rumors spread that Scientology had destroyed a Cruise marriage.

However, regarding Kidman and Cruise, it is a sad fact that infertility and miscarriages can affect marriages very negatively indeed. In 2014 a study was undertaken in Denmark which concluded that couples who could not conceive a child after fertility treatment were thrice as likely to split up than couples who could.

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But Kidman went through all of that and came out the other side. She appears to be very happy with her life as it stands, too, and can now boast of having four children – both biological and adopted. Plus, the star’s career continues to thrive, with a new season of Big Little Lies in the pipeline and upcoming movie projects like Aquaman. Suffice to say, then, Kidman has come a long way.

As Kidman’s experience proves, no amount of fame or fortune can prevent heartbreak. Back in 2016, for example, megastar Céline Dion lost both her husband René Angélil and brother Daniel to cancer within two days of each other. But instead of letting the magazines and newspapers speculate about how she was coping, the Grammy-winning singer opened up about the ordeal and shed new light on her marriage to her former manager.

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Born in Quebec, Canada, in 1968, Céline Dion first found success as a French-language performer. Indeed, while singing in French, she won the award for Best Song at the 1982 World Popular Song Festival and emerged victorious at the 1988 Eurovision Song Contest. However, Dion became more familiar to English-speaking audiences when she released 1990’s Unison. Her big break would come just a year later, when she collaborated with Peabo Bryson on the Grammy-winning theme to Beauty and the Beast.

Dion consolidated her crossover success with 1993’s The Colour of My Love – a blockbuster record that spawned the U.S. number one “The Power of Love.” The singer then dominated the music scene throughout the rest of the decade, with both 1996’s Falling Into You and 1997’s Let’s Talk About Love reaching diamond status in the States. 1995’s D’eux, meanwhile, remains the highest-selling French-language record in history.

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“Think Twice,” “I’m Your Angel” and “Because You Loved Me” were just some of the international chart-toppers that helped crown Dion as the ’90s’ ultimate diva. But her signature hit remains “My Heart Will Go On,” the theme to Titanic, which won awards at the Oscars, Golden Globes and Grammys. Dion rounded off the decade by releasing one of the biggest-selling compilations ever, All the Way.

Dion then took time out at the start of the millennium to spend time with her family. In 2002, however, she returned in style with A New Day Has Come, following this up with a well-received Vegas show. In fact, her residency at The Colosseum at Caesars Palace was named the highest-grossing of all time. To date, her career record sales also stand at a whopping 220 million.

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And Dion’s phenomenally successful career was largely guided by her manager husband René Angélil. The couple first met in 1980 after the music mogul was sent a demo of the young singer. What’s more, Angélil was so taken with Dion’s talent that he remortgaged his house in order to bankroll her early career. Dion was just 12 at the time, while Angélil was 38, but the couple only entered into a romantic relationship six years later.

Furthermore, in a 2018 interview with The Project, Dion admitted that initially her mother wasn’t too keen on the thought of her dating a much older man. “It was not the person that she wanted for me,” Dion revealed. “And I don’t blame her. I said, ‘Mom, I really love him.’”

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Nevertheless, Dion and Angélil got engaged in 1991 and walked down the aisle at Montreal’s Notre-Dame Basilica three years later. Then, after renewing their vows at a Las Vegas ceremony in 2000, Dion underwent fertility treatment to increase her chances of falling pregnant; she had struggled for years to conceive naturally. And, fortunately, the procedures were successful, as in 2001 the couple welcomed their first child, René-Charles, into the world.

Then, in 2010 Dion and Angélil added to their family unit with the birth of twins Eddy and Nelson. The former was named after Eddy Marnay, Dion’s one-time producer, while the latter was so called in honor of Nelson Mandela, the former president of South Africa. Coincidentally, Dion had sued the National Enquirer in 2000 for over $20 million after the tabloid wrongly reported that she was pregnant with twins.

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Tragically, though, the Dion family were left bereft in January 2016 when Angélil passed away due to complications from cancer. The 73-year-old had previously beaten esophageal cancer at the turn of the century but had sadly succumbed to the disease second time around. In a cruel twist of fate, Dion’s brother Daniel also lost his cancer battle just two days later.

Remarkably, however, Dion returned to her sold-out Vegas residency just over a month after the double tragedy. She also took to the stage in May 2016 to perform at the Billboard Music Awards. At the ceremony, her son René-Charles presented her with the Billboard Icon Award.

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And a few days before the Billboard Music Awards, Dion revealed to People magazine that her husband would have wanted the show to go on. “You know what, I’m 48 years old and I lost the love of my life,” she said. “I miss him a lot from when he was great but not when he was suffering. I cannot be selfish. You have to let people go. I feel at peace.”

A year later, Dion opened up further in an interview with The Sun. In a heartbreaking admission, the singer revealed, “I think I will probably grieve for the rest of my life. René has prepared me for all my life since I’m 12. I have never met another man in my life, never kissed another man in my life. I miss him a lot.”

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In the interview, Dion was asked about the prospect of her dating again – and it’s clear that she was struggling with the prospect. “Now it is definitely too soon for me,” she confessed. “I am definitely in love with [Angélil], married to him. He’s the love of my life. It’s very difficult for me to see myself with another person.”

Dion went on, “The love that I have for [Angélil], I live it every day. And as a woman, we do have emotions and feelings that come and go. And it’s always with him. When I sing, it’s with him. When I hug my kids, it’s for him and it’s with him.”

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The singer also revealed that she has instead poured all of her energies into raising her three children, who have been a source of great comfort over the past two years. “I organise myself to not feel lonely,” Dion said. “So I got myself a huge, huge, huge bed and I sleep with my twins. They are comforting me a lot. I need them. I need them close.”

And the star is keen to ensure that her young twins in particular don’t forget about their father. She told The Sun, “We have a little ritual where we say goodnight to him with a little picture. Then the kids talk to him. And they write words, put them in balloons, and we send the balloons to the sky.”

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In 2017, however, one of Dion’s friends told Closer that the singer is being actively encouraged to hit the dating scene by son René-Charles. “He said, ‘Mom, if you’re going to be dating, it’s okay,’” the pal revealed. “But Céline just hugged him and said, ‘You’re smart like your father, but I don’t believe I’m ready.’”

Still, Dion then appeared to take her son’s advice on board, according to various gossip sites. The star was repeatedly linked to Pepe Muñoz, having accompanied the backing dancer at various social events. But TMZ later asserted that the pair’s relationship was strictly a platonic one.

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And in April 2018 another source claimed that Dion still hasn’t changed her stance on finding a new man. The insider told Entertainment Tonight, “[Dion] is very conservative and isn’t ready to date, and she might never be. She talks about the love of her life often and still believes he is with her in many ways. She believes there could never have love again comparable to René.”

Even if Dion has put her love life on hold, however, her career seems to be continuing to go from strength to strength. In May 2018 the star entered worldwide charts yet again with “Ashes,” the theme tune to superhero sequel Deadpool 2. Dion is also expected to release her 12th English-language studio album later in 2018 – although only time will tell whether she will find someone with whom to share her success.

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